i had no intention of blogging when i came home early today. something occupied my mind and i guess there's no place for others. you can run away but you can't hide. it's on this friday.
last night, i reached home ard 11pm after work, and was reprimanded by my dad. i nearly can't get out of bed this morning, and was nagged again. it's not smth that i wish for, when i started a 2nd job. i don't even expect myself to have the time and energy to reflect right now. after sacrificing my rest and play time, this is my reward?
was off-standard in the office today. a task which i deemed simple in the past took me almost half a day to finish. and i was feeling quite lethargic even before work ended. then a familiar voice ringed in my head... "you asked for it".
is it all i ever wanted? it began to dawn on me that nowadays when i set my goals, most of them are unneccesary wants. as each hour passed, i remind myself that i'm one step closer towards earning this sum of money. to the fact that my pay is based on hourly rate.
why did i change so much? where is the me that wanted to try out different jobs... to experience different lives... to gain more experience? i don't even dare to think right now.
i'm tired. i need to rest. now it means so much more to me.
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